Re-evaluating my life

It's great that I've managed to complete the first part of a five-part saga on deviantART. I'm about to go in for my very first job interview, so that's going to be a big step forward. Once I have enough money saved up, I'll buy my own car. I have been contemplating the idea of enlisting into a flight school and learning to fly small planes. My all-time dream is to become a pilot.

Lately, things have been going really slowly for me. I have a hard time keeping myself entertained these days, since hardly anything happens on any of the websites I've visited. And with me being an official adult, I'm expected to be able to perform spectacular mental feats such as do work on my own volition, be able to avoid deviating from standards by even a Planck length, and be willing to let everyone who control society to abuse me like a baseball bat.

Plus, being anticipative of what will be expected of me if I go to college has had me wondering if it's worth trying to compete with the world. They want you to be perfect in every sense of the word, and then some, and if anything goes wrong at all, they give you the boot, and there's no way to get yourself to where you want to be. The only purpose you have in life is to be sucked dry and be fed to the birds by the people who rule your life.

Frankly, the only reason I haven't tried to kill myself is because I haven't finished writing my "Aperture Afterlife" saga.

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People have told me I'm trying to take too many big steps by thinking about this. But who can say that I'll have developed the necessary potential by the time I get to the point of being in college?